Hi Harry,
I like your laugh! In your DVD’s it’s kind of disarming and endearing. I love a man that gets so much pleasure from a sense of humor. But back to me, this is my story after all.
I had thought that all my breakthrough work was done during ReSurfacing. I felt fresh and invigorated. You know what? It didn’t hurt that much at all. I had been told I would face some insights and truths but the ReSurfacing had only raised mild pain about my back story and a shrug of the shoulders with an “Oh well!” That was a relief and I was happy we wouldn’t be going back there again. Whew, that was a close call. Imagine if I really took the lid off the well. Then came those Walks for Atonement. For 48 hours I was walking into a wall of resistance and denial. I was even doubting I could feel anymore, my mind was a washing machine and my heart the clothes inside the spin cycle.
Then the simplest of pushes. Take responsibility for the hurt, my feeling of victim hood and the result of the actions on others. Ouch. The lid was off the well and I was hauling up bucket after bucket of realization and remorse from inside myself. This was suffering I had been carrying around in me every moment! The Walk for Atonement allowed me to relieve that suffering and it was liberating. I was done. Or was I?
The real heavy lifting for me came in Section II. Releasing the judgement on myself and others exposed my feelings of righteousness toward myself at the expense of others. How could others stack up against that? How could I?
After mopping myself up off the floor I realized something. “Hey, I can feel! Hey, everyone, I can feel! It feels good.”
Thanks to all the Masters and coaches who patiently, without judgment, helped me get to my moment of realization. Thank you,
Zeljko Basic- Australia